Yeah I suck

Fitness fail. Shall I try to keep it up? Meh. Idk. I will go to the gym today and see how that goes. Bar exam passage stress and thanksgiving meant bad eating and little exercise. Guess the gym today will test where I am. Just wanna be a fatty sometimes. But cannot.

So hungry means short run?

I'm soooo hungry right now and it's probably bc my lunch wasn't very much. But it had carbs. Calories were fine but I need some protein to stay full. I am already anticipating a shorter run at the gym tonight. Probably just 50 minutes and 600 calories. I have no idea what I am going to cook for dinner! Probably just micro food bc I'm nearly out of groceries. It would be fairly easy to make chicken noodle soup though. And that would probably be pretty nice for the cold weather. I just know that I have to be asleep really early tonight for getting out the door at 6 tomorrow. It's probably going to be a good quick night as long as I don't starve between now and the gym. Micro food is faster. Hm. I really feel like pizza. Too bad that can't happen.

Keep track

So today was my day of realization that I could potentially be giving up the strictness of my diet. I need to avoid that. I didn't make entries all weekend. I didn't go to the gym this weekend. I only went two times during the week. This is not ok. So today is my turn it all around day.

I'm currently really hungry at 10:35 in the morning after my standard breakfast of half egg sandwich. This is not good. I feel like my body is starting to crave more calories again without feeling full. It's like at the start of dieting when everything was a struggle and I was hungry and had to tell myself no! So back to the basics now I guess. I'm telling myself now. I'm staying low on calories and going to the gym. I can't just do whatever and figure it will be ok. Even though the results haven't completely reversed or anything I don't want that to happen. I do still want to continue to lose. Not just stay stable. And to do that I need to stay strict and turn it all around again to get to my goals.

Work hard.

Still losing but confused

I seem to still be losing weight which kind of confuses me. I still plan on keeping my caloric count down. And I know to drop more weight it will have to be even lower. But seeing my consumption so high worries me. Even though my net is fine. The consumption seems like it will hold me back in the long run. So for now I'm going to try to keep consumption low and calorie burning at the same level. Hopefully that will work.

I'm hungry and tired right now.