Disappointed

I woke up this morning very disappointed that I had seconds of paella last night. I was not strong and should have just gone to bed. I told myself it was ok bc of the amount of exercise I did. But I really wasnt hungry and it was late. So I shouldn't have eaten it. There is no way I will lose another ten pounds eating like that. I have newly set a ten pound per month goal for the next two months. Set a weight goal for Christmas basically hopefully I'll meet that. I need to read a little about what happens as time goes on. I'm assuming my body is going to adjust to fewer calories and the weight won't shed. So I will probably need to consume even less calories. This makes me sad bc it means even less good food. But once I reach my goals I should be able to increase without gaining in order to maintain the goal weight.

I have also decided that in November I'm doing 30 day shred. I am actually considering starting it oct 15 since I'm sure I'll have zero discipline during thanksgiving time. Ugh. Feeling sad about this.